Something's missing. Other than the obvious (self-confidence, job, true love, money, prosperity, social status and recognition, real friends and meaningful moments with my family) there's something else missing. It's the engine that's not working, it's the multiple organ failure, it's bad Karma, it's good - but unkown to be good - Karma. It's the thing that keeps me from committing and yet leaves me restless and unappeased about it. It's my feigned inability to put my life on the right track. It's my untamed death wish. It's my intricate little cosmos where everything's connected. It's my obsessive-compulsive personality disorder. I lack the "fun-gene". It's all the tiny excuses that I relentlessly try to sell to myself and to others: another epic fail.
For all the evasive reasons just mentioned, I can't settle, not in my heart, not with the way things are right now.
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